All these advisors telling me that my work load is too heavy. What do they know?!
So, not only does my P-Chem professor know me by my first name, but so does my O-Chem professor. More networking = More recommendation letters = More research opportunities. I will NOT be a number in this system. The only reputation I must hold for myself now is efficiency, stability, punctuality, and consistency…for the next two years….
It’s a waste of time working at the dining hall. I would rather work in a lab synthesizing bullshit for a grad student, or even anything science/medical related…even if it doesn’t have anything to do with chemistry
Fuuuuck. And that’s my hardest class. It’s sad that relative to this class, O-Chem and Physics are much simpler
:) it totally inspires me to go this fall…
I had a dream that I ran into all my ex-girlfriends and told them all I was gay. Weird… Maybe it’s time to start telling people? Or maybe it’s still non-of-people’s-business unless-they-really-care-to-ask
A joint actually makes me more social and focused in the morning. I’ve never felt more productive in my life. Go figure. It must have been the strain.
I walk into one of the dining halls while Tiesto - Adagio for strings drops #epic
Someone asked me about my new years resolution, and it didn’t occur to me that I needed any. I’ve been thinking about this question all month. Then I realized that everyday, we struggle with new challenges and everyday we learn new improvements to overcome that struggle. The first thing that pops into my mind is patience. I noticed I don’t give the time of day for anything new. I’m trying to change my habits and make my everyday choices more productive and open minded. I want to understand new ideas and people, to where I just don’t give up on them the second it gets difficult to learn about them. One of my biggest drawbacks is time. I want to manage my time better and balance my social outgoings and leisure time (everything is good in moderation, I always tell myself). I want to pick up extra-curriculars and new hobbies on top of school, and even with school, I want to study more. I don’t study enough; I need to keep my mind going. I’m too comfortable being lazy. I always thought about playing the saxophone or the sitar, and possibly a sport like soccer to get my mind and physique going. On a spiritual level, I want to be naturally happier and be a less pessimistic person and more satisfied with what I already have. I want to give others the time of day and start networking. I want to balance my introverted state of mind for independent study time and switch to an extroverted state of mind when dealing in social situations, which goes back to time management. I need to teach myself how to save money, which goes back moderation. And finally, I want to go through with all my improvements this year without giving up on them…A bad habit of mine is that I always start something, but never finish it. I figured it’s because of the fear of completion. I hate feeling complete because that’s usually a sign of death, and not ultimate death, but the death of an idea…I like the struggle. It gives me a purpose to live…However, I’ve learned that it’s also rewarding to feel complete and finish something. Most importantly, I want to love myself more. I’ve noticed I rarely do that. I’m sure I have more, but they will come up in the future. I know I will always have struggles. The most important part of those struggles is that you never give up on improving them, regardless of the duration.